Lips
Staring at your lips
And trust me, I try not to but
better than watching the sway of your hips
I wonder; why didn’t I feel this before?
I consider it while I walk into traffic
And then it hit me
Not a car;
But it might as well have been
Because the realisation was like
An out of body experience watching my body bounce off a bumper
I didn’t feel anything because
I could have done
And that would mean moving on
But now that I can’t
And there is no chance of an 'us’
I can like you all I’d like to because
I’m not quite done flagellating myself
There are lows and pains and punishments
That I still haven’t gone to
And I must atone for whatever it was
That ruined everything the first time
And so looking at you now that it’s safe
To say that you will never be mine
I can know that I will never deserve you
Because if I could not give happiness to her
Why should I have any?
you liking me liking you is too dangerous
Because I would only disappoint
Let me look at your lips longer
Knowing the smile isn’t for me
That you’re safe
