Inside of Me
I sometimes feel there is a black hole named satisfaction and you can feed it and feed it but it will never be filled.
The darkness is inside of me
Spreading like disease
I try to quench the pain
But nothing can appease
The world begins to crumble
But only from my eyes
No one seems to notice
The blood spread across the skies
I bargain with the demon
Trying to fill this hole
A neverending gape
Now consumed my soul
Trapped inside these walls
Like a beast within a cage
Pacing back and forth
My insanity begins to rage
Emotions boiling deep
My heart begins to melt
I feel the pain and weep
But anger starts to belt
Lashing out at loved ones
Who can never understand
Flickering confusion
Across the face of man
The things that lie inside
Haunt me day and night
Swallowing my facade
And spreading like a blight
(2013)
When I fall into these moments, the future races in my head. It shows me how I will never be happy. No matter what life I live, who I'm with, what I do. And that I am never really myself because I don't have a real me. There will always be this darkness. And it's not from the world, it comes from inside. Painting everything you see in shadows, sucking away the color of life.
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