I’m losing hope, fear, pain, everything. I’m becoming blank again. Putting up my walls against the world. I’m afraid. I’m broken. I’m losing what I finally became... What you helped me become. You made me confident. Made me a better person. Saved me. And all I did was hurt you and break you down.. I never thought I’d be apart from you. I love you more than anything. I’ve always hated myself. Always hated everything about me.. Except you. You were the one thing I did right in my life. And now you’re gone. I’d do anything to hold you. To look into your beautiful eyes. To just be with you. Happy and smiling again. I love you. I can’t imagine a future without you. I’m scared that’s going to happen. I’m afraid to be alone.. I can’t be alone again.. I can’t fall back to where I was again.. You’re my only hope for a future. My only hope to ever be happy... I need you.. I’m sorry.