(2015)
#Depression
I’ve known Deep inside All along My value That I matter
If I could paint a man Eyes so dark they shine Brooding and stormy Til the smile breaks through If I could paint a man
Well-intentioned stranger Eyeing me limp through HEB Why would you ask If I stepped on a nail? How do you know
The whole world Aches and groans Do you feel her pain? The human in me Wants to heal mankind
May sun is warm An old friend You have missed June sun Still smiles
Mis manchas de Bambi Manchas blancas Cubren mi cuerpo La gente se queda mirando Pero no les da asco
A palomino gallops Beside the highway Look out the window Rides over green hills Through yellow flowers
I look away Afraid to see Flicker of nerves In their eye A clench
Bags full of diapers Cars waiting in line Smell coming from the load Ashamed it was mine He noticed my insulin pump
Your enthusiasm exhausts me This coke is flat The bubbles disperse Leaving a sticky and sweet Aftertaste
Would I rather be A younger me? More productive Stronger Would i have to give up
Destruction is fun But cannot be undone Smashed Trashed Crumpled
Good secret Bubbles inside Let me out Bad secret Indigestion
Itus and Itis Crashed my party I didn’t invite them! I whisper to my sister They make my skin crawl
A noisy restaurant Listen Focus Beyond the dishes The music