Despair, par Liliane

Despair

Today I feel like i am falling off a Cliff

only to meet the hard,

cold floor of my bathroom

I cry for help

I scream silently

No one hears me

As my voice dies inside of me

A whirlwind of social convention swallows me,

Forcing me to smile.

The Lily of the Valley Blossoms beautifully Its fragance is light and fresh But poison runs through its veins, A dark side it surely hides

Words are slipping away From my lips Flooded with emotion I am As the mirage finally came to life

Of a Sunny yellow She wears a legendary name Growing at the place Narcisse had drowned From the own contemplation

Like two birds Flying around another Playing with fate They hesitate But they’ve wanted this

I stare at the mirror All I see is a Monster When have I started to become This horrifying wraith? Like Dorian Gray

Light is her name She is precious like gold Luckier than Fortuna, Always outruning fate Flames blaze from her eyes

Hidden in the dark Lies my heart Smashed Bleeding Tears rolling down my cheeks

Anxiety is dancing in my mind In a loud trance My fears Are rushing into my head How can I ever stop them?

I’m flying Lighter than air Swirling with autumn leaves Golden brown, Yellow,

The water Falls in a mellow harmony Helping me to clear my mind And direct the current of my thoug… I close my Eyes

Pain radiates from my shoulders As I am carrying the whole world I imagine others hurting Like it could ease my pain But it won’t ever go away

Here I was Entering Auschwitz A jet black raven above me Through the wind I could feel I could see

It’s the darkest night I have ever witnessed The Moon reflects on the river In a luminescent wave Here I am

Tears rolling down my cheeks I am sad Tired, Of torturing my mind Wondering

Everyday I worry I dread this coming month, September The milestone of our life The day our fate will be known