Checkmate
she sits across the room, I stare for what seems like an eternity,
but she does not notice for I am just a puppet you see,
the days she looks cold I want to hold her tight,
but its intrusion and it will end with a fight,
for I look into her eyes and i see more beauty and no frowns,
but when she looks at me its like she thinks i am just a pathetic clown,
for the love, the passion i let go was all my fate,
for since the day I met her I already knew it was checkmate,
I was wrong if I had believed I lost for the checkmate was won by me,
but now I sit alone in a room they say is my home with but has no key,
i sit in this room with my emotions as they are all drained,
in this room I have cried so much that it has looks like it has rained,
when she runs through my mind every once and awhile,
i look at how beautiful she is especially her smile,
but these are only memories of something once there,
why wish for things that make you feel like she doesn’t care,
like you don’t exist
like you are a black hole hiding behind mist,
you coming into my leave was a blessing and also a curse,
for i got to feel love but also feel abandonment which worse,
they say it is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all,
but is this really true because i feel this is the wrong call,
because the emotions i felt are now buried underground,
and when i imagine her talking i do not hear a single sound,
I think of her every other week, for I had loved and so had she,
for the only mistake i had made was letting my king flee,
(2012)
