mind
february 2024
mind
mind mind mind
what is on my mind?
dancing around the point like i’m being chased or
trapped or
taken or
i don’t know.
it’s the “not knowing” that gets me.
the “what if”.
the potential of it all
potentially dangerous
potentially deadly
potentially worse than death.
i found i’m putting myself through the same pain i endured
except this time “i’m in control”
but i’m not,
and i’m spiraling,
there are things that are fully out of my control
i’m learning the hard way.
when talking to my therapist about it feels like i'm burdening him. maybe writing about it is enough.
