She looked like innocence And felt like sin And died like grace And fell like a bird And fell like a bird

Last year seems years away. Last night seems lifetimes away. This moment seems like a dream.

You’re young. You’ll feel better. You’ll get better Eventually. So much time to feel better.

Splattered you All over my body And flecks of skin Inside every crevice. I can’t get rid of you

Not as ardent as before. I’m tired. Slowing down, A tail growing heavier and longer With each day.

I find it funny That I raised myself From the cradle To the grave. I never got a chance to be a baby.

I dislike nothing more than Philosophy. How lazy.

Courage was not letting your broth… But preferring to die From their snide remarks Which shadow prejudice’s unkind da… What happened when they grew up?

Nobody wishes so Such as me To die quickly Or be mauled in Such a manner that

He touched my knee (now I’m in lo… No time for breath ('cause I’m in… He likes my hair (now I’m so lost… No time for speed ('cause I’m in… He gave me truth (now I’m so free…

I don’t understand. I don’t understand the cruelty The darkness The fear This choking feeling.

Let my joy be a promise To my future self Who is so beautiful Even if she isn’t pretty.

With him, It’s like there were no scars. There are no sheepish looks No burning shame. There was no John

I’ve been waiting For years And days And all the seconds For a warm body.

You’re horrible, And I hate you. But this is me. I’m the only person That I can’t escape.