I cannot bring myself to cry. I can’t decide if this is a curse Or a blessing.

I remember how I cried When they cut down Our tree.

I love John. I love when he cries. When he looks at me, I fly.

Love is the sickness. Love is the cure.

I forget how to love When I’m gritting my teeth Because I’m a fucking hole/ Nothing’s coming out of my mouth n… Because I don’t love my mom,

Mark, I miss you, And I love you. Each day is lost Without you.

I cried out to God, And There was silence.

It’s so quiet. I feel soft. The winter hurts, So I burrow inside, But I forget how to

I am a plummeting plane. I see the clouds go past, And I close my eyes, sometimes, But I still feel where I’m going. Sometimes, I feel that

I’m falling apart beneath my smile… I grapple blindly for a rope To save myself from rising waters. I come up, lungs full of despair, And my parents cover my mouth

This feeling Makes me want to bless my friends… And find redemption in death. I want to stand in the rain 'Til my bones shake apart

Smile your baby smile and please l… I know I love you, but haven’t yo… Twinkle and shine and don’t ever c… You warm me like a fox in a fox’s… Light of my life and you gave me t…

He helps her with her blush. She’s surging red, Velvet and soft like a rose. Her mouth’s gone dry With his wind.

You ruined me. How could you? You’re my mother. You were supposed to be strong. Not me.

You were the devil. I knew it before you did; And I was St. Mary With clouds trailing behind me. I gave you my virtue