He remains
I’ve always liked the way you write,
your deep long breaths and the way your hands move when you explain math;
I sometimes wonder if you’re in love with me too and hide it as well,
but then I remember you’re too transparent for that.
Darling, how much I wish we had another time,
another scenario,
I wonder if any guy will eventually get you off my mind,
or if I will someday tell you what I feel inside,
and I’ve realized how blind I was,
my sister was always right,
Feelings don’t just fade away like that
The same 16 year old girl writing you today all over again,
and all the tears and the unspoken words had remained;
Sometimes I wish I could just call,
and let you know how pathetic I feel to call you my best friend,
but then again I’m crazy for even thinking about it;
And I’m sorry for getting mad sometimes, I just happen to be addicted to you;
Boy, how much I wish I was one of those girls who get to see you everyday down the hallway,
or one of those many others who live down your street and get to look into your eyes with a “hello” every now and then;
And I wished you felt the same way,
but when I’m feeling brave and you call me “babe”
I remember I rather live in the lie
in your sarcastic ways,
It’s the closest I’ll ever get to your hard, cold heart;
forever untouchable and distant, like the prettiest star in the sky.
