Moments
Do you remember what it felt like
when you were but a child
and you’d meet a cute boy
and try your hardest not to smile
You’d tell everyone you liked him
and THEN ask for his name
write him notes, stuffed in his locker
without an ounce of shame
You’d wear your cutest clothes
And you’d always looks your best
You’d find out all his classes
and knew in which halls you’d pass
Do you remember the first time
you thought you were in love
It felt like you were choking
on all the little stuff
The first kiss you had dreamt of
awkward, full of nerves
and you laugh about it now
but back then it was the worst
Do you remember the first time
in love you actually fell
and you swore you’d never feel this way
for anybody else
The fights they came and went
and the struggles felt like death
and everytime you saw them
it stole your every last breath
The first time someone touched you
and you felt like you could puke
cause you had never been so close
everything was all too new
Then came the ending
with broken phones and shredded letters
all the texts you thought of sending
but knew not to would be better
The months of your heart aching
every guy you saw you’d hate
It literally felt like it was breaking
No use for the duct tape
Do you remember the years searching
for the one to make you sweat
in your palms, your heart racing
but when looking, never met
And when you finally stopped searching
when you’d let go of the rope
your “game” had just stopped working
Everyone single one, told nope
Do you remember that moment
when you knew you fell in love
do you remember that nauseas feeling
when you had thought you’d given up
I remember that moment
as if only a day ago
when you look them in the eye
and your heart already knows
I knew I loved that feeling
the first time that it came
but it was lit, then burnt out quick
like an old trick candle flame
But I dont know this feeling
that’s consuming me inside out
for falling in love with you
I have no single doubt
But I cant say Ive felt this
when my heart just doesnt beat
and my words begin to twist
fall to my clumsy feet
And I cant keep staring
as if though my eyes are broken
and the thoughts in my head blaring
and my heart is cut right open
I cant catch my breath
when you walk into the room
I miss every step
when Im walking right towards you
I cant speak in English
Ive forgotten my own name
when I want to talk to you
the jibberish sounds the same
I cant grasp a single thought
Cause I can barely think
For my heartbeat is pounding in my head
Those words are on the brink
I can say I remember
when I knew that you were mine
because this is right now
until the end of time
I wont tell you that I love you
I wont tell you what I want
I wont tell you that I need you
I wont tell you what I sought
I will tell you that you’re wonderful
I will tell you that you’re kind
I will you that you’re everything
I’ll tell the world you’re mine
I cant tell you that Im not inlove with you
Because I cannot tell a lie
But I will tell you that you’re perfect
As long as you give me that smile
Do you remember when you kissed me
and looked me in the eyes
and told me I was everything
It took me by surprise
I know that I’ll remember
the first time your hand fit mine
and since that moment, since that day
I know I’ll never leave your side
(2013)
