Insomnia
I must confess
I am a mess
Sleepless
And
Restless
Utterly
Helpless.
The medicine didn’t work
My head aches and jerks
While my shoulders twitch,
I rub my feet together
Knowing it won’t last forever.
I cry out for my mom,
Hoping someone will come along.
But I realize my family is gone
Across the deep blue Atlantic.
I become more and more frantic
And soon I begin to panic
The twitching becomes convulsions
My head is exploding
While millions of thoughts rush through my brain.
Oh how do I ease the pain?
How do I release the fear?
I know peace is some where near.
There is a twitch in my eye.
And then come the tears.
I begin to howl and cry.
The tears stream down my face.
They stain the pillowcase.
My cheeks are bloated and flushed in red.
All I wanted was to go to bed
But I lie here instead, wishing I was dead.
For then, I would have an eternal sleep.
Not disturbed or interrupted.
But simply peaceful and unobstructed.
My eyelids begin to become heavy
As my body becomes tired.
So I retire, exhausted and expired.
Until the next night.
Where fear and pain remain.
And insomnia regains
Control of both body and the brain.
(2008)
