The evening which I had last was least to admit the end of all my childhood dreams, to face the everlasting truth, which is self evident upon this cold and dreary winter’s night.   Purest of white snowfall from the darkest night skies and the trees blanketed in white wet fluff.  It looked almost enchanting to say the least of my cold yet humble heart.  The feeling I had that no one could take away but it was to be gone.  No not yet and probably not as soon as I had hoped, and probably not for as long as I had wanted but still in good time it would be gone.

The longing and feeling of being loved and the lost enchantment of a devoted companion.  I longed for the touch of heaven and a kiss that sent me over the moon.  It was crazy t think that day was near but the loneliness I did fear.  An innocent child and upholder of light. A touch of temptation binding me that night.  Assaulted by the mere thought of loneliness and pain.  Pain that no one should have to endure let alone a child of mere cause.  What happened to protection a measly resurrection but lost by all the guilt. A feeling of pity and sorrow.

Then all at once it happened nothing to hide and to hard to fight. The longing had disappeared for a short time but then the dragon was still waiting to be unleashed and the hunger began to grow.  A feeling unlike any feeling I could have ever known of it was in complete control.  The urge could not be fought.  The longing was stronger and the dragon began to lie. It led me into a garden of tropical pleasures. A feeling so real but in the end it wanted so much more than I could keep giving.  I gave in time and time again.  I tried to relinquish control. But the more I gave the more it took and; it almost ended up taking everything.  I had no conception of love but whatever the feeling was it had captivated me mind, heart, body and soul. It took me prisoner under its complete control.

The hunger was hard to bare. My soul was not mine, my heart began to race then I thought of that tropical place and it teased my senses to regain control. I hurried in the darkest of nights I ran and it became clear to me what I was missing that I could not see. The youth of my time had faded with no trace and t get it back would be hard but I know that is just what I had to do.  I had to believe in myself my thoughts and my dreams. I locked the dragon in chains to a stone wall and buried deep inside and at last I was free from what was taken from me.

I began to move on with my life and held my pride so high. And I had my self worth as passion snuck through the cracks. And I promised my self that I would never again lose myself. Then it hit me like a rock.  It happened once again just the way it had happened once before. But this time I somehow knew that the feeling would last and I would never let go.  So much sweeter and so much stronger. The hunger began to grow again.  I found the most sensual person that I could possibly find the most intriguing thing perhaps was what I realized next… the dragon had not disappeared as I had once thought.  And chain by chain the dragon was released just like a spell. And the way that I felt was unlike any thing that I could have possibly ever known. Still I can not believe it could ever be so real.  I feel it in every glimpse of light in ever fraction of the night.  In everything you say in everything you do and I can almost believe that it could actually be true.  The passion built like a fire that will never burn out.  Strong as steel. And as long as time will allow. What could the dragon possibly do when all I could think about was you?  Nothing else could feel so real.  So close to perfect, so close to heaven. The raging river changed courses so well. When I sleep at night I dream of what I can be and I dream of what you could possibly see. And yet I see not what you see in me.  Then once again I see your face.  My heart races and traces the string back to your caring words and sensitive ways.  I begin to find that I love you for you. It had been complicated time and time again but that was before. But I never knew that it was true until the dragon turned to you. And it burned with passion so true. I know I could never go wrong as long as I turn to you.