Scars Of My Life
Lyrics
Some days I walk through this world
and all I see are the scars of my life flashing
sometimes all I see are the scars of the past
I’m running, hurry now they’re going to hit me fast
blow up on me in one big blast.
Til my heart can’t take anymore
and I fall through the floor like Alice
I’m spiraling down the rabbit hole again.
I wish I could pretend
tell myself its just a hallucination and just feel the good vibrations that I’m getting now.
But time and place are everything
so I have to relive the nightmare over and over
til I understand your reasons,
and it may be changing seasons
but I still can’t figure out your reasons.
Why you did the things that you’ve done to me
without a single second of regret
and I was nothing special
just a chronic disease weighing down your life
you would get rid of me for a while
but somehow you would always come back
maybe the disease was the addiction
maybe I was just the pawn to get you through life.
When the magic was gone because I’d seen the light
I was the worst person you had ever known.
Funny how the tables have turned
I have taken away your power
I won’t let you get the best of me
I won’t let you use me, I won’t let you lie.
The truth is I wished that you would die.
So I could smash your urn and walk away with a big smile on my face
knowing that I will no long be a disgrace to everything that I could possibly be
isn’t that what you said I am horrible at everything that I do
well how could you know when you f*** up everything you touch
you have been cursed to live a life of misery
I guess some people really are good and bad, but b**** your the devil in disguise,
you live in your own little world
you know the one that you believe revolves around you.
You hide from the world cuz your a wolf in sheep’s clothing
getting all your little pawns in a row.
Sorry but I took my self out for the count now how many pawns you got left in play?
I am smarter than you have ever given me credit for
your f***** up life was my f***** up life x2.
But music saved me
yeah music saved me
yeah it got me through,
But some days I walk through this world
and all I see are the scars of my life flashing by.
In the songs that I hear.
The songs that make me human again
let the healing begin. Uhhhhhhhhhhmmmmm .
Bam crash let it trickle
let it tickle my brain just a little
and then snap back to reality.
