In Loving Memory Rickie Lee Hawthorne
(2014)
There is a girl and I love her and I have loved her since the beg… Or so it seems to me as I only became conscious
Everyone sees god in a different light but I was born without eyes
You were the wind beneath my wings but I was Icarus so all I did
Everyday I lived out a song written just for you But you could
I spend my nights wishing on every star in the sky that you are alive and well
You asked what I knew about you and I thought up a list of twenty things
I write sharp words with a sharper knife on page after page of what might as well be the skin of my back
So much time passes without feeling a single thing that I think I would give anything
I would write a sweet poem and title it with your name if I loved you at all
I awoke from a deep sleep and knew the reason was to write I love you
I awoke in the dark next to you and more alone than ever I was amazed to hear your heart beating from
I grew up in a house built in 1937 long before codes and regulations and sometimes
All that I know how to do is write about death without dying and write about life
Loving you was never sweet like the taste of vanilla the way I thought it was supposed to be It was more like
I hope this is postmarked before my death certificate is dat… but you’ll know why if it is or if it isn’t If you get this in time