In Loving Memory Rickie Lee Hawthorne
(2014)
#Death #HealingLife #Time
I awoke in the dark next to you and more alone than ever I was amazed to hear your heart beating from
I’ve kept my eyes closed most of these past eighteen years because I find it just as dark
The road is long and winding like nothing you can imagine Too many off ramps to count but too few in hindsight
Just when I get back on my feet you pass on by and I lose my footing Again
I don’t remember any anesthesia after talking with you but I woke up stitched back
I get my silence in five minute doses before the plane overhead brings me back to earth
There is a girl and I love her and I have loved her since the beg… Or so it seems to me as I only became conscious
I hope this is postmarked before my death certificate is dat… but you’ll know why if it is or if it isn’t If you get this in time
I write sharp words with a sharper knife on page after page of what might as well be the skin of my back
Everyday brings a new death in three words give or take Some days I drown
All that I know how to do is write about death without dying and write about life
I’ve always been at the very least a little caught up on everything about you This idea of you
If nature were so flattered by poems written with itself in mind as people are we would be moving mountains
There seems to be a drought in my… but who knows if it is the cause or the result of the war raging within me
Life is an uphill struggle Nothing comes easy and only hard work pays off I don’t like hard work was my 5 word protest