Lost
Do you ever get that feeling that you feel like your underwater
and your about to reach the surface for that breath of air but it never comes.
That’s how I feel right now.
It seems like just when things are about to get better I seem to screw it all up.
No matter how hard I try I cant get anything right.
I can control myself but its getting harder and harder each and every day.
I don’t know what to do but I do know that I need to wake up from this nightmare.
This nightmare seems to be never ending.
Just when I think I’m about to wake up I get sucked back into the darkness.
Where it I am always alone
except for my thoughts and those are what’s gonna be the end of me.
I know this isn’t the end but mearly the beginning.
Like what they always say “It always gets worse before it gets better.”
All I have to do is keep my head up and fight the darkness inside of me.
Just like I usually do,
but I don’t know how long I will be able to fight everything that comes at me.
I feel all alone even though I know that I’m not.
I guess I’m just scared that the people that say they are going to stay
are actually going to leave.
It wouldn’t be the first time and I know that it wont be the last.
I just don’t know what to believe anymore.
I am basically lost.
