compilation -negatives
I’m sorry I was lonely
and I used you
I used you to be a friend.
to be around, it was wrong.
I apologize, it was selfish.
I am selfish, I’m trying to change.
I know this all sounds strange,
but I’ve always been surrounded by this pain.
it absorbs me, controls me.
I brought u down while I got up
but I saw u had enough, I had to get up & be tough.
It was rough, hope I didn’t crush.
I mean no this isn’t blush it’s love struck, dumb struck,
lonely aqueduct.
never meant to hurt u much.
just something I do too much.
the loneliness feels like it’s closing in, a window that no one can get in.
a feeling that’s deep within, running from but you’ll never win.
I need shelter, a wise elder.
I feel defeated
extremely depleted
all hope created became cremated.
feeling so low feeling sedated.
confused, I lose.
there’s nothing left to chose.
my whole life is a bruise,
no quick cruise could subdue
the actions I want to do.
I find negatives in everyone
then my feelings go up in flames.
nothing can ever stay the same.
day by day things always change.
I have always thought it was strange,
how the only thing that remains are my pains.
