I could have
But didn't
I could have lost me forever.
I could have spent my life wondering why we weren’t together.
I could have kept trying to show my worth.
I could have buried my faith under the earth.
I could have stayed, another possibility....
Feeding into some man’s broken ego and fragility.
I could have been another Woman hoping to be chosen...
While my calling and purpose stayed arrested and frozen.
I could have kept caring about the volume of my voice....
Ignoring the flashing sign that said, freedom is my choice.
I could have seen the giant like a fight that I would die with.
I saw the giant in defeat and falling, like Goliath.
I could have shrunk in fear and shame, wondering what people say...
But how people see me and what they say, is not my business anyway.
I could have pressed repeat and gone through this again,
Because this world is full of broken souls, that act like they’re you’re friend.
They are drowning in hurt and torn up hearts, that they do not take to God,
And mistreat the humans they expect to handle them, which is something I find odd.
I could have placed the critical part of thinking on a shelf.....
But critical was a friend of mine that helped me save myself.
I could have kept feeling like I’d always be alone....
But singleness rung an alarm that also rung my phone.
I could have believed that I needed male embrace, right away....
But healing was that friend that said, your heart....do not betray.
I could have folded and became subservient to silent aggression....
But something in me won’t bow down to anyone’s oppression.
I could have soaked my pillow case with tears that kept on flowing..
I did, and realized that my skin was losing moisture that kept it glowing.
I could have been a million things that satisfied the wrong.......
The melody of freedom is a gift from God, like a voice......my favorite song.
Raven
