I wont suicide
I was sitting in the tub with my knees against my chest
I wonderd if god was just seeing if I could pass this test
As I sat there I could hear the petter patter of the rain
And in the water flowted the razer that will soon end my hurting pain
I cryed so much that I could barly even speak
held the razer to my wrist as the tears ran down my cheek
I tryed to cry in silence cuz I didn’t want no one to hear
I couldn’t do it yet so I just watched the water absorb my tear
I thought to my self how would they live with out me
How would it be, I’m faced with reality
A girl like me is always on her own
My heart is close to the world its basicly unknown
Cuz no one really knows how much I want to die
I put on a fake smile but no one realized it was a lie
I keep my feelings inside cuz that’s what I’m tought to do
How did I get so unhappy I don’t even have a clue
I pray that this feeling won’t ever happen to you
My family they just don’t get it
Relationships I don’t. Even want to think about it
No one knows the story of my life
I have it in a key all bottled up inside,
Maybe thats why I always turn to Suicide
I drop the razor cuz I have to be gratefull cuz god let me live
And to my family, them ill forget and always forgive
And to upcoming lovers one will understand
Stay by my side in the silence he will hold my hand
I made it past today and didn’t choose to die
Cuz I know some how god has herd me cry
He will make it better when the perfect time comes
And he can save every one no matter where your from
