State Of Mind
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And all thought I had hardly knew it,
I knew everything at once
The sun was setting, the sky was changing and so was the weather
But the things in my life had begun to remain the same
Different but the same
The people were the same
What I was doing was the same
But who, when, and why I was doing it had all begun to change and falter
The things I had once loved, I loved no more
But there was still a little bit of love in my heart for them
My body had begun to shiver, to look like a rag doll that anyone would throw around at any moment
My fingers shake, my face hurt rom the things I had done the night before
My appearance had changed, nut I had changed as well
I was taking people’s hearts and breaking them
Just because I had the power to do it
Not meaning to at first, but when I was given the opportunity, I’d take it.
I took it, and smashed it into 1000 little pieces,
No one knew the bitter evil thing that began to grow in me, from the bitter person I had become
Not liking it at all, but not knowing how to stop
I sucked the love right out of him
And let him in the floor,
With 1000 questions never to be answered or spoken.
His lack of words was normal to me, but strange to others
I had no idea, but every idea
what I was doing
I was in a state of mind, that i myself hadn’t even known possible.
(2011)
