Destiny
Fill my lungs and watch me breathe
I’m not the person they wanted me to be
But I’m not what they see
And that’s what I believe
If I’m doomed to live in misery
Why don’t I deserve a little sympathy?
Sometimes I feel like this life of mine
Isn’t really mine
Like I’m someone standing behind my body at all times
A silent ghost
Who hurts worse than most
On a daily fucking basis
I’m having a midlife crisis
And this midlife me will fade
Like the dawn of a new day
I shall arise
And watch the sun with my dark eyes
I’ll reflect on what I have seen
I’ll reflect on all that is me
Like the end of a nightmare, turned into a beautiful dream
Sometimes I want to scream
Other times I want to run
And never stop until my feet are numb
Am I too broken to be loved?
Or am I just blocking that from myself?
Maybe it’s a little of both
Maybe a little demented as well
I’m empty inside
Just as I am on the outside
And no matter how hard I may try
It’s never enough
That may be tough
But I’m too stubborn to give up
Not yet
I’m close, but I have a little strength left
And I shall use it to lift myself up from this hole I’ve dug
I’ll drag my weak and aching body up from this mud
And I shall once again be free
Until the devil himself comes back for me
To drag me back to that same hole
To trap my hollow soul
And keep me there for all eternity
That is my one true destiny
