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Everyone I come to love vanishes
I watch them walk away everyday
Over and over again
And I’m just frozen in place
Reaching out
But no one is there to grasp my hand
No one is there to hear my cries
So I hold it in behind sealed lips and a smile
And pretend I’m not as fucked up as I really am
It’s a masquerade of love and hate
A swirl of all emotion
That I keep balled up inside of me
The real me is dying to break free
While this me is aching just to die
How could this ever be considered normal?
All I know is, this is normal to me
I’m so confused, but certain as well
I know my fate and except my failure
This was always meant to be
I was always meant to be like this
Why, I may never know
But everyone leaves eventually so I might as well go
No point in being here if all I feel is woe
And I’m so terribly alone
But that’s okay
I’m deserving of whatever torture comes my way
I’m surrounded by the faces of the ones to blame
But all I can do is blame myself
I just keep reminding myself;
You have to fall before you can fly
And if you’re at the lowest of the low
Just remember that there’s only one direction left for you to go
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