Nerves
Thinking about being with someone else makes me sick to my stomach
But I’m hoping that is just nerves
I believe I’m reaching the summit
Of your eternal curse
I gave you my everything
Until I was nothing
I thought to you I meant something
But I suppose you were only bluffing
I let you deplete all that was good in me
And then some
I was too in love to see
The heartbreak that was yet to come
You were not in love
Not quite
But I was
You were always so bright
You always outshined me
Drowned me out
Caught in the current of your sea
There is no doubt
I was a muffled existence
And now I live half a life
You put up little resistance
While I watched our love die
I felt it rip away from me
The piece of me you stole
Now I sit here and plead
As all the life bleeds from my soul
I beg to be rid of thoughts of you
You swim around in my brain
I know this to be true
Loving and losing you has made me insane
I’m struggling to move beyond you
But I know eventually I will
For now there’s nothing I can do
I am simply ill
I hope someday I meet someone who will shine brighter
Someone who illuminates me as well
And maybe my burden will be lighter
Right now it’s hard to tell
It makes me sick to my stomach
Thinking about being with someone else
But our love was really just my love wasn’t it
I should’ve known you would be bad for my health
