Lotto
When I was with Him I felt like the luckiest person in the world. I felt I had something so special. Everything we did together whether it was eating chicken every night or sleeping on the floor was magical because we had each other. We had a love so strong && an unbreakable bond. Nothing or no one could keep me from him. Not even the things he did to me. Cause I had something, I felt he was the best I could get && I couldn’t do better if I tried! It was like I had a million dollar lottery ticket. For 10 months I dreamed && planned what I would do with my million dollars once I cashed it in. I protected my ticket with my life! Then after ten months I take my ticket in to be cashed && find out it was a fake. The whole time I was holding on to a phony, planning false dreams, && holding on to false hope. It took me 10 months to read the fine print. By then I had lost everything, because what’s a car, relationships, education && a reputation compared to a million dollar lottery ticket?? I felt having the ticket was more important! Everything was put off so I could guard my ticket. && the whole time it was a fake!! At the end of the 10 months I finally realized I had been chasing a dream! An unacheivable, unrealistic dream. My ticket was worthless then, all I could do was rip it up && throw it away. All my time, wasted. I devoured my whole life to a worthless ticket. Tickets don’t have emotions, they don’t care for anyone. So all the love I poured out, all the chances I took, everything I lost was pointless. Cause a fake lottery ticket can’t return any of it! I can’t even trade it in for a soda! That’s what I was left with. Nothing. Memories, and regret of the time I stupidly thought I had won a million dollars. When really I won a trip to hell, a package of debt, scars, and a shattered heart.