It was so beautiful!  The garden mom planted, the flowers were blooming each and every day. All those curious colors, Pink and yellow daisy’s, Orange Dandy lions, Red and Black Roses. It was all so much to take in. “Jas!” Mom called, drawing me away from my inspiration for the moment. “Yes!” I answered,” Please come here Sweetie.”  She replied. I ran from the garden onto the back porch. Mother sat with kitty Regina, as she caressed the soft small kitty, running her palm up and down her spine, as she spoke to me about being focused and on adult because her time is running lower than mines. “You must prepare my child” she continued I could go today or Tomorrow. Your nineteen now, grow out of your childish ways.” With that speech I was excused to finish my homework. Mother always knows how to make me feel sad.

The bell rang and I was already late to American history. I loved being late to DR. Johnsons class because when you’re late he gives you a 20min. after School Detention. I was so excited because even though I had to repeat 12Grade due to personal reasons, Mr. Johnsons never judges. Mr. Johnsons is 22 years old, college graduate, GPA 4.8, extremely handsome and gradually smart as fuck! “Your late again Ms. Corez.”   “Oh Gosh, my watch is just so stubborn, Whew! Sorry” I giggled out. I couldn’t resist his Voice, his breath, his face. “You have a phone Corez, I know this because you’re always pulling it out in my class.” “Jeez Nick, Take a chill pill, I’m here right?’ I rushed pass him to get into the class and took my seat. His body cologne still lingered in the air. Good part is this is my last class. I got so much time too copy this work

I was so freaking happy I couldn’t hold all off it in. I couldn’t believe myself. It kept running through my head over and over again. It was like a dream. I tried convincing myself. I walked in the house and froze from excitement, then hustled upstairs. i laid back on my bed and screamed really, really, really loud.  “AHHHHHHH!”  I replayed what happen back in my head, then I knew nothing but the truth, it had to be real, the whole thing. After detention Mr. Johnson and I was laughing about a smart sophomore who had a lot of mouth named Mariah Carey. When Mr. Johnson’s friend stopped by and gave him 2 tickets to the playoffs this week. “Hey nick. How are you kiddo?” “I’m Great, Mr. Cile and you and wife?” Oh were just so dandy. As a matter a fact Beyoncé and I would like it if you and your friend here would provide as company to the playoffs this week. Of course an answer does not have to be given now but soon. So well see you there!” “Uhh, sure I guess.” “Great, goodbye now Nick, and I’m sorry I didn’t catch your name..?” “I’m apologize, Ms. Corez, Jasmyn Corez, Sir.” “See you their Jasmyn.” As Cile walked away Nick took a deep breath and said, “Well ill pick you up at 6pm, ok? I mean if you would like to go!” “I would love too, ok” I replied

I was filled with joy and excitement. I was going on my first date with someone I really liked. “WHY NOT!!!” I yelled at my mom. “You have to take care of me child. There is no time for lolly gaging.” She calmly answered “But mom, I can get Cecil to watch you, you love Cecil right?” “I said no; let that be my final answer. Now please I’m thirsty and tired.” Nick was going to be here in less than three hours. And I couldn’t even go. She made me so frustrated. I was confused; what have I ever done to deserve this life. I Dropped out of school to help her, spent my college funds to pay for medical treatments, and gave up my social life to help her. And I get repaid by not getting to do this one thing. I brought out a glass from the cabinet, and pulled the grape juice out of the fridge. As I was pouring the juice I saw it, a plan so easy and slick, and I intended to use it. “Here you are Mom.” She drank the juice so easily, didn’t taste a thing. I gently laid her down on the bed.

30mins later……. Mom was rocked! I ran to the bathroom, showered, ironed my spots jersey, and threw on some clean tight Gray sweat pants; Tied up my J’S, put on some perfume by Polo and crafted my makeup. One hour later nicks car horn beeped. I checked on mom and kissed her goodnight. Tonight I was going to have the time of my 19 years life. No Mom, No School, No Drama; Just Mr. Johnson and me. It was 1am when I arrived back at the house, Stumbling and all. I wasn’t really that much familiar with my environment although it was my house. Ciroc and peach citron flowed through my body. After the play offs, Nick decided to crash a Katy Morgan Body party concert. I woke up with a horrible migraine. I was prepared for any lecture she threw my way. I felt good about going out, I had fun. I stood in the doorway; even coughed a little to let her knew I was there. “Look I’m sorry mom so before you start, I’m probably grounded or whatever but I’m sorry. You said you were tired anyway so I helped you. Please forgive me; I Just wanted a normal life.” My head fell in shame now realizing what I did was so wrong. I waited for her to at least say go away. “Mom? Mom, can you even hear me?”

I walked around to her beside and knelt at her side. I tried to hold back the cries, the gasp, I felt my breath be taken from my body, the wind, the air gone stolen out my lungs. “Nooo Please” I cried, “God not her, Why her, Why now?”  I pounced on her arms crying, screaming, yelling, for her to come back, “Why did you take her from me?” All I could think of is leaving my sick mother to go have fun; at the moment I thought it was harmless but now, as it was too late I noticed the signs she was giving me. “I didn’t even get to say goodbye” I moaned. I couldn’t do nothing but cry. I looked down through the sky floor out at the use to be full of colors garden and cuddled my mother’s corpse.