It’s been 14 years Since we’ve spoken 14 years In which I’ve tried to Bury my regrets
2015-01-12-19-24-55_poetryx You made it look so easy Walking away You made it look like It was nothing special
Naked and unashamed The garden abandoned Acceptance exchanged alienation in judgement alone
This is where I am Though I fail to treasure it I am still right here
Here comes the rain To wash away All the things the could have been Here comes the rain ( again) A cleansing flood
All the spaces between. All the things left unsaid. They are like the air packed into a vanilla milkshake
Letting go Is not a choice That I can just make There are no simple steps I can mechanically perform
I didn’t know what it was like to… then you showed me what it was lik… I didn’t know what it was like to… Then you came along and accepted m… I didn’t know I could feel so dee…
2014-12-29-22-53-36_poetryx choose each moment how to act what to say
I want to have it all A full meal with all the flavors Of the single morsel You fed me
Whether moth to flame Or drawn in like fly to shit You captivate me
I’ve lost it again The words were just there Right on the tip Of my mind Now they’ve descended
I have been proud I have considered myself wise I have thought that I was Far above The failures of others
I can no longer trust my mind not to betray me, and devour me To bury me with thoughts of insecu… Was it love was it something else
One more meeting Just one more Rendezvous And the courage To speak up