Walking the world with a smile on my face
As I walk the world with a smile on my face
Only I know the secret and disgrace
Words in my head are hurtful and true
But only I know what I need to do
As people talk at me I nod and grin
If only they knew the one precious thing
That lives in my heart, that plagues my being
It saves me, it kills me, it keeps me living
I wish I could stop being unkind
All those hateful words and beliefs that remind
My heart is aching, my thoughts are dark
I wonder when I will see a spark
A light, a flicker, it remains to be seen
I live in hope that one day it will gleam
