The painful line
Hiding in my duvet
Away from the world
Alone with my thoughts and worries
I contemplate the line
The line across myself
Shall I or shan’t i do it
As I think about the idea
Words run through my mind
Am I stupid, lonely, or just normal
The line is so tempting
It’s pulling me in
It’s making my head spin in circles
As I argue in my mind
The tug of war begins to play out
For and against the idea, I’m just middling
For my head rules my heart
And my heart rules my head
Can someone please just say stop instead
My head decides the outcome
The line is drawn across my arm
It stops the pain inside as distraction begins
The blood rolls down and tears fall
The sadness and anticipation
The line is drawn, no going back,
no hope, no joy or pleasure.
