Lyrical Distraction
My eyes...
Are wide open
Behind closed eyelids
I fake being asleep
In hopes to drown
These deadly thoughts
Torturing me
It’s not working...
My hand reaches for the headphones
Slipping the soft plastic nubs inside the lobes
With trembling hands
I click on my touch pad screen
Of my cell phone...
Blaring the first song...
Speaking of past memories...
That once was the happiest moments
That one could have felt
Before he felt like his world was destroyed.
Feeling so invisible to the world
Wishing for someone to notice my existence
Even if they don’t know who I am
To pull me out of this deep ocean
Of solitude that I can’t escape from.
I fall back on the pillow
Listening to the lyrics...
Wondering if the person singing this song
Really means the words he’s saying
If he ever knew...
That a girl like me...
Is using his song...
To save my life...
From the forbidden act
Of destroying myself.
Did he cry after writing this?
Did he or someone...
Feel the same loneliness
As I do...?
My stomach feels like knives
Causing me to groan in agony.
I feel incredibly sick...
I have no appetite...
My throat burns...
I can’t swallow...
My eyes still won’t close...
It’s been at least ten minutes...
And I never noticed
The tears started to roll
Down the side of my eyes.
Or knew...
That I was spacing out.
If music is the cure for my illness
Then do not pry these buds away
From my ears...
Leave me here...
Don’t disrupt my only peace that I have.
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