Sleep
Everything about me feels jagged
My words, my mood, my emotion
I want to scream
Scream until there’s nothing left
Break something, shatter it
This feels too damn big
It’s too full, can’t be contained
The lid is starting to come off
I’m trying so hard to keep it
Keep it together, contained
I’m losing my grip
My fingers are sweaty and slippery
My muscles are shaking from fatigue
I’m using all my strength to hold it
My control is failing fast
I’m really not sure how much more I can take
It doesn’t matter what it is
In this moment of my time
It won’t take much to break me
I am volatile
Help me please, I’m losing it
This is scary for me
I can’t lose it I can’t fall
If I fall, I feel I will shatter
A million pieces scattered everywhere
There’s not enough superglue in this world
I’m on the edge of the precipice
The drop is never ending
It is a bottomless pit of blackness
I’m spinning wildly out of control
I can’t see clearly
I’m exhausted from trying
I want to sleep and not wake up
Sleep eludes me.
(2012)
