Don’t ever tell me That I make you feel guilty You know I’d never try To make you feel guilty Am I supposed to feel guilty

I care too much About people I barely know About people I’ve never met About people I will never forget I used to think

I have seen some Superficial people Who come out and say Exactly what they want All the time knowing

If you could see it in my eyes The subtle refusal Because it might not feel right to… Not at this moment Not at this point in time

The rope is thin Burning your hands As you try to climb To the top You think

I find it hard not To just Run right over to You Not caring what

If you even knew About me... Everything... As you said you wanted to... You might make assumptions

If only it Were as easy As it is for everyone else Nobody is Talking to me

Even when I wanted to run Straight for the hills I stayed here Taking my pills Pretending there are birds

Honey mustard Paint me yellow Paint by numbers Two and three Never the right

Devastating is the realization That I cannot simply fly away To a place where skies are not gre… Where there is an easier way Of getting through another day

Do you dream of me The way I dream about you? If they only knew... If you only knew! That life isn’t

You swing on the trapeze With finesse With ease Not even the breeze Sways you

Despite the lies I tell myself I know the truth Will always haunt me Like unsolved murders I lay awake thinking

It’s funny How I let my guard down Just ironically Periodically I contradict myself