(2012)
#Pain #Sadness #Tears
I loved my father He was a great man He was the worst of kind Sometimes he made me want to die Others he showed me how to shine
A fluke encounter Letter after letter Turning me inside out Each new exchange Giving me
Stupid Boy I wish you could have seen How much you were loved Maybe if you had known... Things could have been different
Unhappy thoughts Replace my good mood Sending my heart fluttering Angrily against my chest Demanding to prove their worth
My fingers gliding across the keys In a race to keep up with My wayward thoughts Drifting through me head Things demanding to be out
The world is an ugly place Filled with disease Secrets buried deep within Betraying the lies we hide behind Spewing all our sordid crimes
Here is the thing Before you came along I was doing just fine I knew the score My days all had an order
Disappointment is everywhere I lo… It is in the faces of those I adm… And shown in their actions I wish I could fix everything All the hurt feelings
Looking in the window I’m frozen in place As I watch the scene inside I’m looking at the woman Who claims to be an outsider
I’m wide awake The night still young My mind refusing To take the chains off To let me escape
Forgiveness is the hardest gift to… Tears clouding our vision Our sadness turning to madness Hiding our hearts beneath Thick layers of rust
The blank page stares back at me Mocking me with his taunting glare… The hands on the clock ticking - t… chanting, “Failure, failure, failu… My mind is frozen. I’m blank.
Time ceases to exist Vanishing from my mind As my worries cry All the things I can’t control Throwing me back
My heart yearns My memory flooding my head Images gloating of funs to be had Displaying first hand reminders The taste
A little boy tugs at his mothers arm while she ignores him. Tears springing to his eyes he wonders why.