Waking in a cold sweat Choking for breathe Scared to death The shadows prancing In the darkness

The world is an ugly place Filled with disease Secrets buried deep within Betraying the lies we hide behind Spewing all our sordid crimes

You don’t deserve this attention You’re not worth the time of day! My heart may be crushed Evident from my bleeding tears My sadness flooding my resolve

I don’t know where to start Too much to say So much more to lose I know what I am risking But I don’t have a choice

I thought I knew What was love That I would recognize it When it came to the door Greet it with open arms

Peering into the window The scene beyond the glass Brings tears to my eyes The pain burns in my throat As I hold back the sobs

You look at me Like I’m some prize on display Pride glimmering in your eyes As you smile encouragingly AND

Disappointment is everywhere I lo… It is in the faces of those I adm… And shown in their actions I wish I could fix everything All the hurt feelings

My heart yearns My memory flooding my head Images gloating of funs to be had Displaying first hand reminders The taste

My fingers gliding across the keys In a race to keep up with My wayward thoughts Drifting through me head Things demanding to be out

Guarantees a long painful death ...

Memories flood through my head Drowning me once again Days turn to years But the suffering never ends Memories resurfacing

Here is the thing Before you came along I was doing just fine I knew the score My days all had an order

Forgiveness is the hardest gift to… Tears clouding our vision Our sadness turning to madness Hiding our hearts beneath Thick layers of rust