Here is the thing Before you came along I was doing just fine I knew the score My days all had an order

I don’t know where to start Too much to say So much more to lose I know what I am risking But I don’t have a choice

My heart yearns My memory flooding my head Images gloating of funs to be had Displaying first hand reminders The taste

Time ceases to exist Vanishing from my mind As my worries cry All the things I can’t control Throwing me back

My voice vibrates off the empty st… echoing in the night. The glow the street lamps illumina… the brick buildings centuries old Their character leaping from the s…

The world is an ugly place Filled with disease Secrets buried deep within Betraying the lies we hide behind Spewing all our sordid crimes

My ceiling is dreary The white paint Paled from the years Flaking and peeling I stare morbidly content

My fingers gliding across the keys In a race to keep up with My wayward thoughts Drifting through me head Things demanding to be out

Starting Over There are no words The silence stretching between us As we struggle to breach the gap Our breathing labored

Disappointment is everywhere I lo… It is in the faces of those I adm… And shown in their actions I wish I could fix everything All the hurt feelings

Unhappy thoughts Replace my good mood Sending my heart fluttering Angrily against my chest Demanding to prove their worth

Guarantees a long painful death ...

You hide behind your big smile But I know you wear a mask And I see the lies you hide I see the scarred fragile soul Cracking beneath the weight.