just puked up cookie batter; sending my love to illinois.

i’m trying to give you cardiac arr… i’m trying to drink your blood lik… i hate your guts; can i fuck them… don’t be gentle, i want to scream at the top of my…

like a knife to flesh. phantom pain. a faint scar, but it’s jagged. wishing you’d come back and try ag… so i could step right into the kni…

“who ruined winter for you?” “i did.”

i’m busy with bruised legs covered… i’ve got my black boots kicked up… on a hot swing set in the backyard of a church that doesn’t want me. i’m saying fuck, getting familiar…

i love you and isn’t that it? isn’t that a slur? to say i love you, when your father spilled that

insomnia, violence, puncture wound… a razor, eating your organs raw, a… impatient, obsessive, humiliating.

you’ve stopped responding to my te… and now i’m wondering, if maybe you’ve finally gotten bored of me. i can’t blame you, cause if i were… i would’ve gotten bored as hell to…

my ma stuck that knife in me straight down to the hilt. she treated the knife like a nail, and treated her fist like a hammer… i pulled it out, bit by bit,

i don’t want to think about you an… so please, stop asking about me. stop telling my friends you’re sor… for the hopes it will get through… i don’t miss you anymore.

did you know if sharks stop swimmi… my mother found joy in domesticity… with three kids and a husband, bak… and good for her, good for fucking… my safe place is flats filled with…

you go to touch me, and i bite your soft, warm fingers… then when you’ve left, i cry because i’m cold.

it’s embarrassing but, god i love, love, love you i’ll swear on everything i own, and everything i’ve ever wanted that i love you in ways i didn’t t…

i want to cry and count all your f… decorate your face with stickers a… then maybe you could hold me and w… do you think?

i flick the lighter on, on, on off. a useless fidget, one that turns my thumb gray and r…