annasourausrex
ive never felt so ugly in my entire life,
and i need starvation
back’i didnt wanna feel this way
didnt need to eat that
i can go from 89 to 93 in one day by a salad’and a bowl of soup
thats what this will do.
you dont know this.
i cant talk to people directly some days
because i dont even want them to see my face
i cant be happy,
im sad if i eat
sad if i dont
i wanna be fixed in this way but
know that i wont
and im cursed
worse is better
better is worse
i got drunk and broke a rib and i cant suck in or inhale
it feels like a lousy way to have to see what i am
my sister said i need to be admitted
it made me so damn happy to admit it.
because if i feel bloated but
look sick
its okay,
maybe if iskip food this week
i can numb todays pain
