games
i read in books and
i see in movies
and i witness in others
mother said
mother taught me
it is a phrase i wish so desperately
that i could utter
i know in my heart it is true
there were days in childhood
when mother said
and mother taught me
but the mind of a child does not always remember
at least not in consciousness
here
in this part
mother did not
or perhaps i blacked out
the soothing words of childhood
and replaced them with her darkness
when mother did not say
mother yelled
mother angered
mother hated
mother blamed
mother
mother
mother
mother fucker
fuck
what a trick
this sick
twisted
game
my mind has gotten so good at
blacking out the peace
and grasping on
to the pain
- my little monster
