I fear
My fears...
I’m afraid of lonliness,
Living in this life without the true unconditional love of a partner,
I am afraid of failing to make a positive impact on the world,
I am afraid of becoming some wandering wingnut who is unable to communicate his genius to the world or even to just a single person,
I am afraid that this world is going to eat me up whole and swallow my innocence leaving only the bones of a serious logical man void of any joy, love, or laughter,
I am afraid of running my friends away from me with my selfish and egotistical action,
I am afraid of my ego.
I am afraid of what my ego has done, and will do in the future in my attempt to better myself,
I am afraid of becoming a social castaway, stranded on my lone island trapped behind the walls I have built in an attempt to protect myself from heart break, and attacks on my character,
I am afraid that I am the only person dealing with these fears.
Everyday fear rears it’s ugly head and like a hydra every time I chop off it’s head two more sprout.
What to do? Where to go? How to feel?
Fear to me is an iceberg, and I suppose it is about damn time I begin to explore beneath the surface.
The journey continues....
(2015)
