beneath my plastered smile, lay thousands of thoughts so deadly even your mind would bend at the thought of them
I am not a very confident person at all
I exclude myself from social activities just
Because I know I will trip and fall trip and
Fall over my own feet I keep myself locked
Inside a room with only my thoughts do you
Know how much pain it causes me knowing I
Physically cannot stand with a crowd of
People without wanting to shoot everyone
Do you know my eyes have cried oceans because
My family actually hate trying to talk to me
Do you know the struggle i face trying to
Slip into jeans while knowing my thighs can not
Fit do you know the feeling of tracing over old
Scars with the sense that you deserved them
I am not happy with my face or my body or my
Entire soul for i have been bathed in a tub of
Self hate and no amount of praying to god or
Paying therapists can cleanse me now
