I have longed to dissappear
I have longed to disappear
From the echoing of lies
Neatly tucked in pursed lips
Drowned in false gaiety
Sped on fancy-free ruinous mouths
I have wished to clasp those
Those insufferable banshees
Who guess my heart
And deplete every essence
I stood where I loved
And understood the crime
I removed all that I loved
My beauty, my mask
That dark friend that bleeds
I awoke in the twilight
Painting the sky-scape all red
To match these ever-consuming thoughts
It matters little what I hear
My canvas is a closed attraction
My words are dripping
Into the graves; into oblivion
A cry that blinks multitudes
Unto every single epitaph
Yet to be scribbled
And so I scratch this skin
Praying fervently
To chase the madness
And come undone
In the rain shower of my youth
A sputtering in the hand of time
I chaotically wish for a touch
Something like home
No words, No compliments
Just a tender look
And I will feel asleep
Softly into the bed I made
And dissolve among my dead
