Returned
I’m wheeled in on a gurney hanging to life.
The doctors act fast and start wielding a knife.
They slice up my chest and crack open my ribs.
They start massaging my heart so I can live.
The doctors try everything they’ve learned on the job
and the scene that I watch is pure macabre.
I suddenly realize, how can this be?
The dead body I’m watching seems to be me.
Detached from those senses I drift over the room.
I look down on my body and all of the gloom.
I feel something calling and I turned to see,
it’s a faded white light that’s caressing me.
The glow becomes brighter the closer I come.
I feel current run through me like an electrical hum.
My body gets lighter like its coming apart.
I feel every atom flow from my heart.
I’m drawn toward the light that’s now as bright as the sun,
but I’m not getting closer…we’re becoming one.
All of my atoms and protons and quarks
are now part of the universe that make everything work.
My being moves faster than the blink of an eye,
but I’m perfectly still and it all seems fine.
The light and my substance are now one and the same
expanding ever outward from whence they came.
Like the wave of an echo that rises up high,
and goes through the clouds becoming part of the sky.
Or fireworks that explode and burst into light,
and inflate in the air to absorb into night.
I’m filled with all knowledge at the speed of thought,
even the things that I was never taught.
I’ve returned to pure energy without any fear.
Now I understand everything and it’s all so clear.
At that moment I feel pushing from what I think were my feet
and a sensation engulfs me which appears to be heat.
The heat turns to moisture and I’m being guided along.
I feel I’m being taken to where I belong.
Now there’s cool air around me and I know I’m somewhere.
There’s commotion and laughter, a blanket of love in the air
I hear words all around me that I don’t understand.
Now I open my eyes…and I’m a baby again.
(2000)
