always been taught to prioritize other people’s pain over my own trained selfish if i speak about myself at… supposed to normalize anger

i have weeds growing from my skin i am one with earth and still feeling unnatural i sit, water pours i am blooming

i hope that every time that you see this shade of green it drives you mad i hope that every time that you hear a laugh like mine

i wonder if i cross your mind i wonder of thoughts of me creep u… and whisper in your ear i wonder if you take a second glan… at my name when i call

people have hurt me. taken advantage and made me feel unsafe. you have never harmed me, so why does it bother me so much

same old patterns, willing to give my love away. but what’s the shame in that? yes it hurts - never quite reciprocated -

i feel... “okay” really that means i’ve been dissoc… it means distracted it means ignoring what upsets me it means crying less,

i’m the only one awake between dusk and dawn. i see the faint moonlight caressin… the low sunlight in such a way, that they seem to speak through on…

i don’t want to ruin your night i don’t want to always seem broken always bringing you sadness that y… soon you will be tired of it i am not as fun or interesting as…

tear me limb from limb turn me to dust my life impacts no one why do i exist? i am disappointing

i cannot rest my heavy eyes due to… and no matter how hard i try and t… you’re always there laughing as if you belong if only you’d visit me in the fles…

if i died in my room, whether it were an accident or int… how long would it take for you to… everything is about you, you, you so where does that leave me?

my mind is loud tonight, i am struggling to sift through it… overwhelmed by every detail. feel like i don’t exist feel like i am replaceable

jotting down my thoughts trying to make sense of it all shaking hands stiff fingers i cannot even self soothe anymore

i love you more than i ever though… you fell into my life when i didn’t expect a thing you fell into my life when i needed you most