You know, I miss you both Like I miss my childhood blanket That I wonder idly about.

With him, It’s like there were no scars. There are no sheepish looks No burning shame. There was no John

Don’t cry Don’t cry Don’t cry Because it’s your birthday.

Nobody wishes so Such as me To die quickly Or be mauled in Such a manner that

I sing of a new carol Which starts silly giggles As a speeding blue carriage Runs merrily through the dark.

I forget how to love When I’m gritting my teeth Because I’m a fucking hole/ Nothing’s coming out of my mouth n… Because I don’t love my mom,

I wish I wish I wish I could swim in oblivion. Have a tummy full of pills.

If I should die before I wake, don’t cry, For that was what I always wanted…

Can you hear it? It is the cry of the poor. Their howling curls inside of my h… It pains me as if I were one of t… But, I am.

The stars belong to both the sun And the moon Just as my heart does belong to yo… You may not see me, but I’ll be there.

Woah. The bright sky Makes me want to live, And the grass Smells too good to miss.

Listening to you sleep, I’m in grace. Each breath a prayer. Every rustle a litany. You don’t know how loud you are

Not as ardent as before. I’m tired. Slowing down, A tail growing heavier and longer With each day.

When you taste your own sweet tear… Know I’ll be there. When the night becomes a friend, Know

My mom hates her life, And I’m too much to juggle, And my dad doesn’t support my mom, And my brother’s never home, And my medicine doesn’t work,