That’s why she died– Because she never let anyone hold… She didn’t trust herself. She didn’t let anyone love her Or touch her

I remember how I cried When they cut down Our tree.

Sam said, “Get over it.” As if I could Just climb a tree. Sam said,

Nobody wishes so Such as me To die quickly Or be mauled in Such a manner that

I feel so lonely. I want to die. Feeling like the only one on earth… My laughter is a lie. Laugh on, laugh on.

I am a plummeting plane. I see the clouds go past, And I close my eyes, sometimes, But I still feel where I’m going. Sometimes, I feel that

Listening to you sleep, I’m in grace. Each breath a prayer. Every rustle a litany. You don’t know how loud you are

The devil’s in my midst.

Shambles: They hold my life together. I’m shredded into slices, Trying to hold it whole, And I wonder if anyone

I often cajole myself Into crying, But I refrain. I know I’ll never stop.

It’s over. It’s okay. The parting is such sorrow And relief. It hurts like a crushing force,

A seagull carried me away one day And took me to a secret island hid… I laughed at the waves and splashe… I even wrote notes to go with a so… The seagull was leaving and waved…

Woah. The bright sky Makes me want to live, And the grass Smells too good to miss.

I find it funny That I raised myself From the cradle To the grave. I never got a chance to be a baby.