While you were gone, My childhood dog died. I wept for both of you, And I felt like a corpse. While you were gone,
Things I wish I could say Would be I miss you, I love you, I want to be with you,
Why do I still feel guilty About things That are out of my favor?
You ruined me. How could you? You’re my mother. You were supposed to be strong. Not me.
Nobody can see the darkness in me, And when I go deep, I bring a flashlight to slash thro… The dark. I once used to frolic in light,
Sam said, “Get over it.” As if I could Just climb a tree. Sam said,
I’m so broken, And the glass stings were my façad… There’s nothing left to do. There’s nothing left to say. There’s no air left for me to brea…
Let my joy be a promise To my future self Who is so beautiful Even if she isn’t pretty.
Am I incurable? It seems so. I’m an incorrigible invalid Of the heart.
Woah. The bright sky Makes me want to live, And the grass Smells too good to miss.
Mom, I miss you, And I’m miserable. I miss grandma, And I’m so lonely. I miss being a kid.
In the darkest night, A flower will grow.
That’s why she died– Because she never let anyone hold… She didn’t trust herself. She didn’t let anyone love her Or touch her
I’m falling apart beneath my smile… I grapple blindly for a rope To save myself from rising waters. I come up, lungs full of despair, And my parents cover my mouth
I forget how to love When I’m gritting my teeth Because I’m a fucking hole/ Nothing’s coming out of my mouth n… Because I don’t love my mom,