I sing of a new carol Which starts silly giggles As a speeding blue carriage Runs merrily through the dark.

There’s so much blood in blood cou… As there are stones in my heart When I hear your name. The winged-pig can fly daily Once I’ve let myself remember

You are the best thing Because things like that do not co… You are my moon and sun Because you make my days real. You are my best friend,

You’re horrible, And I hate you. But this is me. I’m the only person That I can’t escape.

In seventh grade, I made you a po… But I tore it up into pieces Because it wasn’t good enough. In eighth grade, I made you a poe… But I left it under my bed

I find no release. I die. I die, Yet I’m not free. Not 'til I die.

I forget how to love When I’m gritting my teeth Because I’m a fucking hole/ Nothing’s coming out of my mouth n… Because I don’t love my mom,

My mom hates her life, And I’m too much to juggle, And my dad doesn’t support my mom, And my brother’s never home, And my medicine doesn’t work,

I remember how I cried When they cut down Our tree.

Then he said, “I never said I was… Then I said, “I never asked you t… Then we kissed.

Someone’s teaching me to give up. It’s like unrequited love, But we’ll break up in the end. I’m showing myself to give up When I see how I fall asleep in c…

Wait 'til Michigan comes. I think I’ll wait 'til then. Think I’ll wait 'til I hear my co… Hear them loving me in Michigan. Think I’ll wait 'til I swim.

A seagull carried me away one day And took me to a secret island hid… I laughed at the waves and splashe… I even wrote notes to go with a so… The seagull was leaving and waved…

My mother is the darkness inside m… She planted the seed That grew into brambles, And now, I can’t be loud Because she makes me so

Last year seems years away. Last night seems lifetimes away. This moment seems like a dream.