(2014)
The love, The hatred, Going in circles. Like a train on set tracks, Around and around.
Dull, Worn, Scratched, And torn. An antique soul,
The peace you brought, It was misleading. Unknowingly, You sneak up, With your hypnotic dance.
Cowardice. Seeking comfort from chemicals. Not facing what I ought to face, Terrified. “..I was blind, but now I see..”
Learning to swim Uncharted waters; The walls. Barriers, Built over years.
Take this. This gift. An escape. Ever silent, Ever painless.
Just a simple thank you. Thank you for guiding me. For always being there, waiting. Greeting me.
When you left, Your voice was always there. In the house, On the street. Everywhere.
48 years of beautiful life, ended. 23 years of knowing you, ended. 13 years of caring for you,
The words spoken By them. Knowingly sly and spiteful. So cold. So calculated.
Staying afloat, I’m ripped down again. Into the deepest abyss. With notice
There is no more pain, No more grief, Anger, Depression, Anxiety;
Venturing into the unknown. The mind stops, terrified. Yet; the heart pushes forward, ever curious and hopeful.
Emptiness. A void in his very being He tries to fill. Drugs, sex,
Watching the world. Paper, Plastic, Celebrity, Religion.