(2014)
Learning to swim Uncharted waters; The walls. Barriers, Built over years.
The peace you brought, It was misleading. Unknowingly, You sneak up, With your hypnotic dance.
48 years of beautiful life, ended. 23 years of knowing you, ended. 13 years of caring for you,
Cowardice. Seeking comfort from chemicals. Not facing what I ought to face, Terrified. “..I was blind, but now I see..”
Venturing into the unknown. The mind stops, terrified. Yet; the heart pushes forward, ever curious and hopeful.
The words spoken By them. Knowingly sly and spiteful. So cold. So calculated.
Staying afloat, I’m ripped down again. Into the deepest abyss. With notice
Just a simple thank you. Thank you for guiding me. For always being there, waiting. Greeting me.
Watching the world. Paper, Plastic, Celebrity, Religion.
Emptiness. A void in his very being He tries to fill. Drugs, sex,
There is no more pain, No more grief, Anger, Depression, Anxiety;
A lifetime given, To a life now taken. A love now silenced, Will be forever deafening.
The love, The hatred, Going in circles. Like a train on set tracks, Around and around.
When you left, Your voice was always there. In the house, On the street. Everywhere.
Take this. This gift. An escape. Ever silent, Ever painless.
