You can think of me in your drunken stupor try to reach for something thats been long gone, years don’t make the difference, when your heart belongs to someone else. How do you get over love, they say time will heal the wounds and maybe that is true but how do I stop myself from loving you. Years have gone by I no longer cry but at any given moment you still cross my mind and in that moment I still let time rewind. I relive every memory the good and the bad and tell my self this is where we are at and then I come to the realization that I made the right choices and I wouldn’t be who I am today if it would have worked out some other way. I am so sick and tired of dredging up the past I just want it to be dead and gone so maybe one day I can finally relax.
When I heard that song we danced to or listened to in your truck. Dancing like we were crazy no one could ever stop us baby we were more than just a whisper in the wind and you more than just my friend and in that moment I feel as free as I did then but I remember when the ball dropped and we went our separate ways I made a life with the man I love today. And it isn’t fair to him for you to keep pushing your way in. But a part of me still wants what we had, A part of me just wants to feel that way again, and when things get rough with me and him I still let your memory fade back in. Will I ever be able to completely let you go. I tried not having any contact, ignoring all your requests and invitations, but every time I see your face i’m takin back to that place. I still let you cross my mind, I still let time rewind, I relive every memory the good and the bad and tell myself this where we are I come to the realization that I made all the right choices and I wouldn’t be who I am today without the man whose holding me right now.
I don’t want to remember the past, I don’t want to relive the days we had, the only thing I think I want so bad is to feel the way you made me feel if I could just have that back.... I know that it’s not love I’m holding on to... it’s just a feeling just a feeling oh its just a feeling I can’t get back. Too much time has gone by I am not the person that I was before. I won’t be opening that door so don’t come around here anymore. I’m getting older and fun isn’t all that I’m looking for. I have what I love, I love what I have. So why do I still want you so bad. Its the feeling that you gave me when I was in your life, the feeling that no one else could ever give, but it’s not you that I want, its not you that I am thinking of it just the way I felt, oh just the you made me feel.