(2014)
I grew up in a house built in 1937 long before codes and regulations and sometimes
So much time passes without feeling a single thing that I think I would give anything
I awoke in the dark next to you and more alone than ever I was amazed to hear your heart beating from
I hope this is postmarked before my death certificate is dat… but you’ll know why if it is or if it isn’t If you get this in time
I would write a sweet poem and title it with your name if I loved you at all
I thought I could drink you away but I had to stop being so drunk on you first
I say hello and you say nothing You may hear me you may even think of a response
I have whispered your name into the air so many times it has become the breeze that blows
I was like a rain cloud over a small garden and dammit if you weren’t that garden so full of flowers that I fell in love
I’ve always been at the very least a little caught up on everything about you This idea of you
The road is long and winding like nothing you can imagine Too many off ramps to count but too few in hindsight
All that I know how to do is write about death without dying and write about life
There seems to be a drought in my… but who knows if it is the cause or the result of the war raging within me
It must be a wednesday or a friday or any day at all for I am painfully aware of the wo… that consumes me
I’ve kept my eyes closed most of these past eighteen years because I find it just as dark
