Apology.
I cried for the ice cream.
I cried for the toy,
But why didn’t cry for you.
The funeral came and people’s tears soaked the death fills carpets.
But mine were sitting nicely in my head.
Sorrows in their hearts.
Prayers being said.
And there was I:
A ten year old boy wondering why every one was crying.
I walked to the front to see you lifeless, pale,........cold.
Escaping that lifetime eye contact, everyone couldn’t seem to stop crying,
While I just had anger building up.
I felt no sorrow, no remorse.
Nothing to show that I seemed to cared.
A few days later,
A song came on......., “I’ll Be Missing You”
That day.....
THAT DAY.....
My heart broke through the ice filled cavern.
My tears pouring out creating my own river of sorrows,
Expressing what simple words could not.
I realized you were not longer with us on earth,
But earth was where we needed you must.
To stop the crying, to bring back the laughter.
Hopefully to hear an apology.
We’ve had our fights
We’ve had amazing times together.
Regrettably parting words have been said.
Your last day with us on this planet filled with love,
Hatred overshadowed.
“I HATE YOU,” was the last words you would ever hear from me.
I have my apology ready.
I hope one day you can hear it.
(2012)
